tmr is last paper.
i don't know why i don't feel as excited as two days back.
thinking of it.
wow.
2 years has past just like that.

suddenly got the feeling to reflect a lil'.
since no one reads my blog.
it's for my own viewing pleasure.
:D

sec3 was like a serious wake up call for me to grow up.
i was living in denial.
moving from sec2 to sec3.
never did i expect that everything would change overnight.
from best of friends to nothing.
that really hurt me alot.

if i were to go back to sec 2 or even sec1,
i swear i would definitely live it differently.
i'm not saying that i didn't had wonderful memories with her.
but now,
i can hardly remember any of them.
i would still be good friends with her.
but i would not let myself to rely on her so much.
have more friends,
get to know them better.
or even spend more time with him.

we were together for quite a long time.
but come to think of it,
we hardly did much together.
i was being childish along the way.
didn't cherish you as much.
only regret after it's over.

i couldn't believe or be ready to expect that.
my mood was totally bad.
i couldn't help but be emo.
(note: if you happen to read this, i'm over with it already. i'm not blaming you or anything. this is just my thoughts.)


many of you guys comforted me.
i'm grateful for that.
i apologise that i treated you like her.
i knew you and her were totally different people,
but i just couldn't get used to it.

come to think of it.
so many things happened when i was in sec3.
no more BFs.
hahaha.
come to think of it.
i shouldn't have ended the one that i did.
i regret it quite a bit.

slowly,
i grew up.
removed the word BF from my dictionary.
i managed to live my life happily.

sec4 breezed past so quickly.
before i knew it.
i was facing my terrible prelim results.
the result of me not waking up to realise that
i'm racing against time.

now that O's is about to end,
i thank those that accompanied me through this road,
tolerated my nonsense.

i hope the memories i leave behind in your hearts is not all bad.
do remember the fun we shared.
:)